embracing aotearoa

I know its been a while since i've blogged.There are new datelines to meet each day and there's simply no time to blog.Hmm.Its about 2 weeks sine i've blogged?Somewhere around there i guess and lotsa stuff happened like the fire conference i attended,chinese orals, youth festival,making of class shirt , and just recently the drama farewell party. I'm too lazy to talk about all of the above so i'm gonna just mention 1 or 2.

The making of the class shirt was really tiring i must say.No one really wanted to help me and pearlyn. only except a few kind souls like wei lun, charles and waileong. Most people agreed to help but only to back out at the last minute , some made excuses and all that pretending and stuff .... oh come on. if u seriously don't want to come then freakin say so ya? don't make some excuse or whatever...and u know what just leave it to me and pearlyn..we'll find away.we've been finding ways since the start..

Hmm now for the farewell..it was alright...I guess it was hard for the sec 3's to handle such a big bunch of people..not all the seniors felt special or anything but i applaud the sec 3's for trying ;) after all 19 seniors is a rather big bunch of people. I thought i wasn't gonna cry and stuff but what fiona said really touched me(ok i teared a little)..I've forgottened how it felt to be appreciated by anyone for a long time and i know i do..Thanks fiona..it meant alot to me...

I've got this feeling that i've been lied to a couple of times..don't seem to feel like i'm part of anything nowadays..been getting stares?? or should i say weird looks from a friend..ok maybe that didn't mean anything but it sure did make me feel real uncomfortable and i sure can't forget em'....some people might call all this shit as being emo or whatever..but seriously..humans are made like that yeah? everyone has their emo moments unless u aren't human at all..people can't be happy all the time...I'm not trying to victimize myself or anything here..perhaps i've been pissed and didn't realise that i've been treating anyone poorly or anything..i know no one likes to be treated that way..so please tell me or something instead of keeping quiet and throwing the shit back (u know what i mean.)

u can pray that i'll blog about something happier next time...